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[It's been a year...

It's been a year since he first came to the Plane. What he feels about it? Sometimes it's like a haze inside his head and all over his Cosmo.

Sometimes, wishes he could hate this place, and others but even less, a part of himself can't help but to be grateful for. Feelings that are still hard to accept... and having them meant weakness. His own Cosmo betrays him at times and he's so sick of it...

Neither sad or angry, Saga lies next to the stream as he gazes at the leaves stirring slenderly with the wind at times. His motionless, emerald eyes piercing tenderly at the sole view.

That is the Gemini Saint, graceful even at ease.]

[ooc: Backdated to the 20th x3;;]

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Everything is like that. It feels like some bad joke at times.

[He's starting to wonder if they will really be able to do anything for Seiya after all. He also sounds annoyed and disturbed. Maybe Saga now has a better idea as to why.]

[Oh... He does notice and just, sighs in nuisance. Both can agree on that part.] Who did you meet?

Does it really matter? Anywhere I look in that place is something I supposedly should recognize, but it's so different it feels like a different world. Even Athena, when Sasha is in control, is different like day and night.

I suppose I just wanted to know why things were so different.

["Saga did it" isn't a valid excuse. After all, Ikki's mostly talking about the people, their wills and actions. It's not as if Saga used mind control on everyone in the Sanctuary.]

[Frowns.] You say it as if Sanctuary wasn‘t Sanctuary at all. How different it is?

[Because he can‘t imagine Sanctuary in any other way. Some structures and old habits may have changed with the course of time, but still...]

It may just be us, from the way you talked about the Sanctuary before it didn't sound that different from what I've seen there. The Sanctuary there is... Not everyone knows each other, and there are doubts and hesitation against other Saints, but overall they... Are united. All of them, Bronze, Silver, Gold, trainees, it doesn't seem to matter what their rank is, they are regarded as equals and of same importance even if in terms of strength there are differences.

And Sasha is... Not like the woman who is Athena in our time.

[He's not going to start on the differences there, it should be obvious already that he doesn't think high of Saori given how he rarely, if ever, calls her for her name.]

Who knows, maybe I'm just getting the wrong impression. And the only example of Sanctuary I have to compare to wasn't at its best moment.

[Oh... that...

He knows what he means. Actually, it is similar and different. In a way.

Saga and Aioros were the oldest Saints and the rest were still... kids. Some of them were absorbed into their own affairs and ideologies. And honestly, Saga himself detached from any partnership just to become a loner. Mostly it had to do because of his so-called image and what he was dealing at the time.

Though the mention of both Athena's vessels gives him a sort of discomfort that he visibly frowns for a moment. But of course, Ikki doesn't give a damn about and he knows it. No comments on this matters because the answer is obvious: Sasha became a Goddess from an early age while Saori grew up as a human girl of a wealthy family. Thanks to him.]

[His voice is filled with bitter acknowledgment.]

Admittedly, I agree. [Sighs.] It is... not a wrong impression you have. Not as serious as you can think.

[Saga didn't choose who would be the man to raise Saori, neither did Aioros, really. Much less did any of them decide how the man would do it or what other ideas he would have. Part of him knows he shouldn't be so hard on Saori but as herself she really has done nothing he feels he owes to her and even Athena he doesn't feel as if she's more than just decent. He performs his duty because that's what he's to do, because he takes pride in being the Phoenix Saint and Esmeralda told him to get the Cloth, it was her last wish. He doesn't care who Athena is or how she is, he will do his part and will give his life for her regardless of personal feelings. Besides, it's not as if he could ever do anything else.]

Not as serious?

[Neither does Saga. He barely knows how Saori's life was and how she is. But the little he could see is that she's very kind to him.

Even so, as Ikki, he has a duty as well. To protect his Goddess at any cost, until his Cosmo ceases to exist... his life was hers. He promised to himself do things the right way this time.

He meditates for a moment what he's going to say to him.]

Aioros and I were older than the rest. So we had other... interests. It didn't mean we had to treat the children badly.

I suppose. That's not what I meant though.

[A heavy sigh.] It was the same situation as you mentioned.

It may be, but you were younger. We're all stupid brats up to a certain age.

[~~Except Shun, who didn't ever evolve from the crybaby stage~~.]

[A faint smile. Ikki is right...

Vain... greedy... self-centered... Those flaws were a piece of his daily life in his teens. And because of them, coupled with what it was slumbering inside of him...]

We still are some sort of fools... in a way.

We wouldn't be here if we weren't. Anything wrong with being a fool?

[... and feelings. Silent. Remembers certain lady.] ... No... there's nothing wrong.

But things cannot be changed. And we accept it.

We don't just accept everything. If we did we wouldn't fight.

[Not everything huh?] What about... feelings you should not have? [Because, you know, he's very new at it.]

[He stares.]

Who says you shouldn't have them?

It is useless. You are exposed to weakness. [Says the one whose heart is a huge mess.]

Feelings aren't a weakness. I learned that long time ago. They can be a weakness but only if you see them as such, otherwise they can be the source of your strength and be what will call others to you to fight along your side.

I casted away my feelings once, everything but hate and anger. I've never been as weak as I was back then.

[By the way, he hates you for making him say those things. Seiya or any of the others would be more suited for this kind of speeches.]

[~~Haters to the left?~~ Heh, he‘s used to the hate so, no hard feelings at all.

“... as weak as I was back then...“ Those last words are causing a conflict inside of him. Does he feel strong enough to have them as of now?

He dares to ask Ikki one more thing and maybe a punch to the face is a go. Why Saga seems slightly emotional for a brief moment is somehow unknown.]

Have you... loved someone before?

[~~Goes to the right, hey this is my left ok?~~

He feels stronger than back then and he realizes that giving up to hate and anger only made him weaker than before he became a Saint. No wonder he was defeated, he didn't become stronger than ever until he returned to his old self. Ever since, he has only grown stronger each day.

Ikki glares at Saga. And for a good long moment it may seem as if he's going to indeed punch him. He even uncrosses his arms and clenches his fist several times as he glares... But, no matter what Saga caused, he can kind of understand what's left after healing from such a wound in his own soul. Even if their wounds weren't the same, even if one got lost in devotion and the other in hate. He sighs.]

I have. I do.

[Ask whom and he will punch you. And claim that it's his brother. Hey, brother love counts, right?]

[~~okay okay xD~~

Saga eyes him boldly for a moment as the reaction of the Phoenix becomes apparent, then looks down silently. He expected it... it was imminent, but seems that Ikki (and Kanon) understands him better than anyone. Of all Saints, Ikki is the one he can dare to keep up a conversation like this. It is certainly different from the ones he has with Oliver. Different points of view.

No. He won't ask because it is private and doesn't make any difference. And Saga knows Ikki would give his own life for his brother and his comrades. That is unquestionable...

... But...]

It hurts, doesn't it? [Okay. Now punch him.]

[Definitively. This time there's not even a moment of consideration, his fist directed to the other's gut, of course, being a Gold Saint Saga may be able to avoid it. But at any rate the message will be delivered.]

Yes, exactly like a punch.

[It's a valid answer, if the other bothers to think about it.]

[Indeed, he could have avoided it. But Saga's to blame, even if he didn't mean to piss Ikki off. He's definitely to blame for this, so welcomes it on purpose.

The Saint writhes with eyes shut and lets out an almost contained sound, placing a hand on his stomach in response. Ikki was right... The intensity of his fist expressed all his frustration, all his ache.

Even so, Saga couldn't help but chuckle weakly.]

[Ikki just gives him a side-eyed look.]

Better?

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