twenty-second pact ❖ {in uthanera}

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[Emil isn't even sure where to begin. His monsters are practically afraid of him, and he... Did he really say those things? Did he really do those things? He must have, because he's pretty sure he died again.

He needs to make sure everyone is okay. Eventually he finds himself in Ammy's forest-- or what's left of it. A weathered oak tree invites him to sit against it; he unbuckles his sword and leaves it a few feet away. He feels so small in comparison, like a lost child seeking shelter in the gnarled arms of an old woman.

Emil draws his knees to his chest and huddles like this for a while. He should find his friends, but it's all he can do not to give up right here.]

[ooc: He's back to normal. ):]

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[He nods once, twice, like he wants to believe it. But then something else tumbles out. It's halfway between desperation and confession, and still he avoids her eyes, plays with his armbands instead.]

But how do you make up for taking someone's life?

[... That may possibly hit closer to home.]

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[ The fonist waited patiently for him to continue if he wished to. If he didn't want to continue she would not press the matter. She had a handful of troubling things she had done in her own past and many of which she would rather not speak about. Even if they weren't completely terrible.

That question was definitely a hit closer to home. She paused for a moment, closing her eyes for a moment before speaking. ]

When you take a life, you take full responsibilities and bear that burden knowing you have killed someone. When I take someone's life, I save another but saving one person or protecting one person will not wash you of the fact that your hands are bloody. As long as your feelings are true and if you are truly regretful, you'll have to continue moving forward with that guilt and hope that you are forgiven.

[ When she said this, it seemed as though she was using her own experience as a way of explaining it to him. She can't say what he should do to make up for taking someone's life, but as long as he knows that he was wrong and that he wants to make things right, there's always hope. This was coming from a young woman whose hands were stained with blood. ]

It all depends on what path you wish to take from here on.