Hemophobia

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

[Blood.]

[Dripping down every door in the onsen.]

[Human blood, rich and fresh, slipping to the floors, slowly, then disappearing into nothing. The flow goes on like a wound that will not clot. And of course, there is the smell.]

[It's perfectly real, perfectly nutritious for those with a sanguine diet. Some of it is the night-and-starlight blood of those who have died on the Plane.]

[And it just won't seem to wash off.]

[ooc; What? He was bored, and he figures that the vampires are probably a bit hungry. As Scarecrow isn't going to own up to What He Does When Given Shiny Rings, feel free to use this as an event post. That is, other characters are encouraged to comment to each other, because Dr Crane won't be responding to everyone about it. This effect will last until the end of the plot.]

Comments

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

You'll meet him eventually, once they start letting you out into the rec room.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

Oh, I hope that doesn't take long! I want to meet some of the other people really badly.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

You have the rest of their lives to get to know them.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

{She frowns briefly, but she puts her smile back on quickly}

Oh, but that's such a sad way to think about it!

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

Which way? That we'll all be there forever, or that they will die before you?

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

Both, I suppose. I don't like to think about how I'm immortal and no one else is. It makes it easier to enjoy things when I don't.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

There is a word for that, you realize.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

What is that?

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

It's called 'thought supression.' Your psychiatrists are bound to bring it up more than once.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

...It's not like it's that bad, is it?

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

Not morally, most of the time. It is, I assure you, a completely natural process. All humans do it. Vampires apparently do too.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

{She smiles a little, but it's shyly.}

I guess so...I've just always dealt with things that way, so I didn't think it was weird.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

Most consider it somewhat unhealthy.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

You mean Arkham does. I know, he's told me.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

Jerry-boy might be a sadist, but he earned his degree fair and square. Any other psychiatrist would agree.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

I don't really care what they think, though.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

Most of us don't. But most of us don't want to 'get better.'

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

{Uncertainly} I...don't know if I want to or not.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

[in his psychiatrist tell-me-about-your-mother voice]

Why don't you tell me about it?

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

{And, as usual, she gets more moe shy as she talks about it}

It's just...Well, it's like you said in that last session. Being "Diva" is so much easier, but...it's not happy. But being "Elizabeth" doesn't feel right either, so I just switch between and it still makes people mad. I don't know what better is, but I want to be happy, like...Like I was before.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

With Sam or with Amshel?

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

With Sam.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

Of course.

He might come back one day.

[madamemoiselle.livejournal.com]

If it were my Sam, it wouldn't matter. He wouldn't forgive me for the things I've done since he left, I don't think.

[handfulofstraw.livejournal.com]

And if it weren't your Sam?