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[this is Lucy. this is Lucy sitting quietly off to some random side of the Plane, resting in a wide, comfy chair, legs tucked beneath her and reading a book. what book? a random one she snatched from the TARDIS library that gives some (very) truncated history on Gallifrey. why? because her husband has currently gone a mite bonkers and thinks himself someone else. it really, really sucks. so she's doing some reading and hoping to find some answers.

hopefully]

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Fine. We don't owe each other anything. Not pangs, not forgiveness, nothing.

I haven't worked that out, yet, but I'm working on it.

You had no intention of ever forgiving me, anyway.

Is that so? [taps her chin] These Twins are fond of playing these games, you said? How long do they usually last? Maybe that will help.

You wanted to hurt me. I can't imagine why you'd want forgiveness.

That usually starts with an apology, at any rate.

[as a matter of fact, he has a datapad on him with information] the lengths vary. Anywhere from a day, like the stealing experiment, to a few weeks, like with the language barriers.

You have no idea what I wanted.

[...busy body] Yes, but those affected everyone, didn't they? What about ones specific to individuals?

So I'm wrong, am I? Humor me; explain.

I've only got limited data on experiments on individuals. Misaki's seemed to last a month or so, but I didn't realize something was wrong until later. I've never had one affect me. What about you?

You saw my mind, Doctor. There's nothing to explain if you're intent on pretending it never happened.

No, the Twins have never bothered me. They seemed to do something with Diva, though, but she was quite pleased with it. I suppose that means they don't only harm those of us here.

[falters] W-what I saw in your mind had to have been some very clever trick. If it wasn't, why would you do this? That was more than just choosing the Master. You hurt the only thing I have in the universe. You tried to strand me! And you did it all with a song in your heart.

It isn't all harmful, but it's hardly safe. Who knows what the effects of having Rassilon and Omega's minds inside of them will be.

A human, trick a Time Lord? Now who's being daft? [looks away] And just how did that song sound, exactly, since you seem to know so much?

Who are Rassilon and Omega, exactly?

I was being daft. Saw what I wanted to see.

[quieter] What are you trying to prove? You've won, already.

Two very old, very powerful Time Lords. Some of my race considered them gods, for what they did for the people. But they were just men. Brilliant, terrifying men.

Saw what you wanted? You egotistical, stupid, pathetic idiot! How long can you possibly sit here and tell me it was a lie? You-- [clamps her mouth shut] I'm not trying to win anything. You're just a fool.

[sniffs loudly] And you're worried for what? That Harry and your other self might inherent some of that power?

How can you stand there and tell me it wasn't? Trying to make it worse, are you? "Oh, Doctor, it was real, but it just wasn't good enough..."

No. Though the thought of the Master with Rassilon's power is fairly terrifying, the two of them might get swallowed by those currently dominant personalities.

You really are thick. Do you have any idea how much I want to hate you, you fumbling imbecile? I want to and I can't and I haven't the foggiest idea why!

[she needs to take a few deep breaths and walk away from you a minute, Doctor. give her a sec] So you're saying Harry could disappear forever and all that would be left is a man with his face and no idea who I am?

Lucy--- [steps towards her, then hesitates, and then goes cold]Try a little harder, Mrs. Saxon. I'm sure you'll find the emotion quickly enough.

Yes, exactly. And all of the things you've done will be for naught. So! Let's see if we can't make a plan.

[now you get the book thrown at you] You bloody oaf!

Why don't we just trade you for them, hmm? I'm sure the Twins can find so many uses for a doddering idiot such as yourself.

[book hits him in the shoulder and he rubs the spot where it hit] You're the one who wanted to be even. Angry now? Now try a dash of betrayl and a year of painful repairs. That would make us even, Mrs. Saxon. We'd be just about square.

You know, they might. Why don't you ask them? Or we could figure out something that would work.

I never wanted anything from you! I tried telling you so many times, but you just kept pushing, didn't you? None of this would have happened if you hadn't pushed! It's your fault and now we both get to suffer for it!

Oh yes, why don't you offer up one of your wonderful ideas, Doctor? I'm sure nothing disastrous will happen if you do.

It's all my fault? Do you have any idea what I---

But you just couldn't give him up. Now we're here. He's with his Doctor and we're alone.

I shouldn't have come here. It'll sort itself out in time.

What you what? Wanted? To save me, wasn't it? Have to help poor little Lucy make the right choice? Have to show her the universe? Show her what she's missing? Give her someone else to love? Is that what, Doctor? Because you did. You did all those things and now look where we are!

Don't lie. You aren't alone. How long did it take to find a replacement for me? A week? A couple days? A few hours? Are you having fun with your little human self?

Even if it doesn't, no loss to you, is there? Maybe you should just walk away, Doctor. Then we really would be even.

You made that decision! I was willing to save you! They would've accepted you! You would've never had to---but this is what you wanted! Your husband and the comforts of what was easy. How long until you were back to fetching his suit jacket?

You'd deserve it, too! [the narration would like to note that he still hasn't left]

[The narration would also like to note that there is off-topic, then there is off-topic, then there is this.]

[the narration would like to note that this has been a long time coming, however, so just how off-topic it is would depend on the listener]

I didn't decide to love you! I didn't want to love you! I tried so hard to keep hating you but nothing worked! But I can't hate Harry, either, and you're opposites! You're black and white and I didn't want to choose, I wanted grey but it didn't matter, did it? If it did, you wouldn't have said anything to that stupid human self and he wouldn't have ruined it for me! You always ruin everything!

[her admission leaves him a little winded, as he'd convinced himself she was tricking him]

Apples and oranges, eh?

Sometimes you have to make a decision. Pick a side, pick a shade, pick a flavor. And you chose! Stop blaming me for that!

[always the master of the obvious, aren't we Ten?]

I hate that damned fruit so much.

I'll stop blaming you when you forgive me, how does that sound?

You wouldn't change what you did.

Why should I?

No, I wouldn't. It doesn't mean it didn't hurt.

[shakes her head] You have no reason to. I knew that when I did what I did. Only one of you would forgive me. I chose him. [looks away] Wouldn't you have done the same?

I did have a choice, remember? And I went in there to save you.