052 - If I were to become tiger food (It would've been more noble)

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Misaki is in the Astral kitchen, doing... well, it's not entirely clear WHAT she's doing. There are pots bubbling over on the stove, produce everywhere, piles of dishes in the sink and the oven is starting to smoke out of both sides as though attempting to cry.]

[Misaki squeaks and opens the door, releasing a black avalanche of smoke. She starts coughing, squints through the black fog, and her eyes go wide.]

[Very gingerly, she shuts the oven door, switches it off, and leans her back against it.]

...oops.

[And she proceeds to have a gigglefit.]

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[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[She's quiet for a moment.] I forgive you. I forgive you for taunting me when Hei went to live with you, for telling me all the ways you could make him yours--I should apologize to him for that, too, really, because I should know him well enough by now to know the difference between just friendship and what we have. I forgive you for spreading our argument to him, and to Deadpool, and I forgive you for being... less than distressed when our experiment ended. Thank you for being Hei's friend. You mean a lot to him. [Quietly, almost thoughtfully,] And if for no other reason than you are his friend, I'm sorry for what I said.

[madamemoiselle]

{There are a few points about this apology that bother her, but she just bows her head lightly rather than comment on it}

Thank you. I'd hope that it were because some of those things were hurtful, but this is just fine.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[With mild amusement] I'm glad you approve.

[And then she starts scrubbing out one of the pots.] And I am sorry.

[madamemoiselle]

{Relaxes a bit, and she smiles warmly}

Ne, don't worry about it. I think I'm the one that did more damage, right? It didn't bruise, did it?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

I'm fine. I don't bruise that easily. [She scrapes out one of the pots and hopes very, very strongly that the garbage doesn't clog that easily.]

[madamemoiselle]

{Watching curiously}

Ne, because you're a policem--woman, right?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

I suppose. It's more that I don't really notice getting hurt if there's a job to do.

[madamemoiselle]

So then you're focused on your job! Ne, that's a good thing, then.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

Yes, but it's not the only thing. It's really not even the most important thing, if I'm being honest.

[madamemoiselle]

Then what is the most important thing?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

My family.

[madamemoiselle]

Do you mean like your parents, or Hei?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

My dad, yes. Kanami, Hei, Sam. [Snerk.] The Doctor too, I suppose.

[madamemoiselle]

But Sam and the Doctor are your friends, right?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

So's Kanami. That doesn't mean they can't be family too.

[madamemoiselle]

But it's different, isn't it?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

A little, maybe. It's an adopted family instead of a natural one. But you love Sam, right? And Hei?

[madamemoiselle]

I really love Sam. But...Hei is more like family, I guess. I don't love him the same way that I love Sam.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

It's like that, I suppose. Though Hei is... [A pause] I love him, the way you love someone special. Like you love Sam. But he's also my friend and a part of my family.

[madamemoiselle]

So then things are...better between the two of you? You both seemed really happy together.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

They are, yes. [a pause] I don't want you to think about this too much, I just want you to... keep it in mind, all right? It may have only been an experiment, but being with Hei, being married to him, taught me alot. It's great that you love Sam. It's obvious he really cares about you too. But... sometimes just love isn't enough. You need to be equals. You need to be friends. You can't live just for him, just doing as he says and wanting to make him happy. You have to find things to make you happy on your own. Things that let you stand by yourself.

[softly] Maybe it's not my place to say that, to say anything to you about someone you love, but Sam means a lot to me. I want him to be happy, too.

[madamemoiselle]

{This is a new concept to her}

Ne, but...equals? No, if we were in a relationship, Sam is a man, so we're not equal.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

Who told you men and women can't be equals?

[madamemoiselle]

My, who hadn't? There have been many people over the years, and definitely not all of them have been my Chevalier. Woman have always been the weaker sex.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

That isn't true. At all. It isn't true about women in mind or body. I'm not physically powerful, maybe, but I'm still a section chief. Do you know why? Because I'm strong. Because I can think quickly, and because I showed the men around me that I'm just as skillful as they are. Men... they get scared easily. Even the good ones. They don't realize that recognizing someone else as powerful doesn't make them weak. Do you understand?

Think about... about how strong you are. Physically. How many men here are as strong as you? Maybe one or two, and that's only because they have superhuman abilities of their own. People tell you you're weak so they can control you. As long as you believe it, then it might as well be the truth.