nightmare and memory

[leschath.livejournal.com]

[Milo's on the Astral Plane again and he does not look happy. Not that unusual but he looks more hostile than usual and he's back to wearing his full armor.]

Whoever is generating these "nightmares" I would appreciate it if my "past life" were left alone.

The past Holy War has nothing to do with me anymore, especially considering another one is looming. What happened more than two hundred years ago is none of my concern.

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[lamb_of_gold]

Hmm. It really is a commonality then...but yours seem less severe than mine...

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Oh? And what are you afraid of?

[lamb_of_gold]

Heights, ironically, but personal fear does not give shape to my dreams...

It....[breaks his gaze and looks away]....I don't suppose you remember the night Mas--Shion died?

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Back then I lacked the awareness to sense his death, nor do I have strong enough connection to his Holyness.

[lamb_of_gold]

As I thought.

I...saw it. I saw it happen then as I do now when I sleep.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

I suppose you at least know what it's like to have lost someone important.

[lamb_of_gold]

I do. Perhaps my feelings on it are quite a bit different than most though.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

[He shrugs]

I've been desensitized and I don't have anyone as important to me as he was to you.

[lamb_of_gold]

I think you do.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

I don't think I do.

[lamb_of_gold]

Did, then.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Don't assume such things.

[lamb_of_gold]

The fact suddenly getting defensive about it leads me to believe that it is a correct assumption.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Fine, I'll humour you. Just what are you assuming?

[lamb_of_gold]

That you and Camus were good friends. Perhaps not intimate, but friends nonetheless, and his death is bothering you more than you wish to admit or even acknowledge.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

We were friends but everyone becoming a saint is prepared to die. Dreaming about his death angers me but I wouldn't consider it a nightmare. It's just a reality.

I'll never feel the way you do, I'm incapable of it Mu.

[lamb_of_gold]

I doubt I could ever feel that way again.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

It was a long time ago.

[lamb_of_gold]

Oh the emotionally uncensored days of our childhood.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

I don't think about it.

[lamb_of_gold]

There's an eight year old living with me - I'm constantly reminded whether I want to be or not.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Then don't die on him.

[lamb_of_gold]

I don't plan on it, but the Holy War is coming. I am prepared to do what I must.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

He'll be old enough by then. And who knows, your reality is different from mine. Maybe this time there will be more than two left standing.

[lamb_of_gold]

From what little I remember of Master telling me, they were lucky to have two...but perhaps one of us will have a more favourable outcome.