nightmare and memory

[leschath.livejournal.com]

[Milo's on the Astral Plane again and he does not look happy. Not that unusual but he looks more hostile than usual and he's back to wearing his full armor.]

Whoever is generating these "nightmares" I would appreciate it if my "past life" were left alone.

The past Holy War has nothing to do with me anymore, especially considering another one is looming. What happened more than two hundred years ago is none of my concern.

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[lamb_of_gold]

The fact suddenly getting defensive about it leads me to believe that it is a correct assumption.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Fine, I'll humour you. Just what are you assuming?

[lamb_of_gold]

That you and Camus were good friends. Perhaps not intimate, but friends nonetheless, and his death is bothering you more than you wish to admit or even acknowledge.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

We were friends but everyone becoming a saint is prepared to die. Dreaming about his death angers me but I wouldn't consider it a nightmare. It's just a reality.

I'll never feel the way you do, I'm incapable of it Mu.

[lamb_of_gold]

I doubt I could ever feel that way again.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

It was a long time ago.

[lamb_of_gold]

Oh the emotionally uncensored days of our childhood.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

I don't think about it.

[lamb_of_gold]

There's an eight year old living with me - I'm constantly reminded whether I want to be or not.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Then don't die on him.

[lamb_of_gold]

I don't plan on it, but the Holy War is coming. I am prepared to do what I must.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

He'll be old enough by then. And who knows, your reality is different from mine. Maybe this time there will be more than two left standing.

[lamb_of_gold]

From what little I remember of Master telling me, they were lucky to have two...but perhaps one of us will have a more favourable outcome.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

...from what I saw I'd agree. But none of us became Saints to die.

[lamb_of_gold]

But the expectation is always there. If my life could save another, I'd gladly give it.

I suppose I'm in an unfortunate position though, being the first of twelve.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

You never give your life Aries. You fight with your life on the line, there's a grand difference.

[lamb_of_gold]

To me, they are much the same, but perhaps that it the myth of Aries speaking as well.