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{Diva looks honestly shocked for a moment before she stands calmly, wiping the emotion from her face as she brushes herself off} You really think that?

[shrugs] I'm not overly fond of vampires, especially after the things they've done to the Doctor and his people. [frowns] Perhaps torture is not the most appropriate thing, however. At any rate, I don't think very highly of you.

{Still without emotion} What a cruel machine. The Doctor must like you very much, because I never would have thought that he would keep the company of things like you.

He cares for me more than anything else, and I for him. I would do anything for him, do anything to keep him safe. [frowns] He is all I have. You cannot possibly understand that.

{Smiles just a tiny bit} More than you think.

[raises a brow] I think quite a lot. Try me.

That's how Amshel and I were! Amshel was the person that saved me from the tower, and he cared for me like no one else. Amshel taught me, fed me, protected me, and I thought that he loved me.

So I decided that I loved him too. I would keep Amshel safe because I was "his treasure" and the person he cared for most. He was, well, all I had~ But, ne, as I got older, I realized that Amshel didn't love me at all. He was just using me too, but his words were much prettier and his actions more deceiving than a first glance would make you think.

He is not using me! [bristles] Your Amshel may have lied to you all those years, but the Doctor is not lying to me! He does love me, as I him! We are nothing alike!

Oh~ I said the same thing for so many years! 'No, Amshel would never use me', or 'That's impossible, Amshel treats me like a daughter', or even 'Amshel loves me', but they were all lies~

[and it would seem Diva's just gotten the advantage with her Goddamned brain breaking] I am not you! The Doctor is not some foolish, ridiculous human attached to a disgusting vampire! He does not lie to me!

{Chiming} You sound like me~

[angry~] I am not you! I am better than you!

We're the same.

We are not the same! We are nothing the same!

We're both trash, meant to be used and discarded. You, however, just haven't been able to decide whether your master is interested in you for you, or just you for how useful you are. We're exactly the same, aren't we?

He is not my master! He isn't using me! He's my Doctor, he's my friend! [glares, clutching at her head as the drums begin beating furiously] He loves me! He said he loves me; I know he does! We are not the same! I am not ... like ... you!

{Diva moves closer, sliding her hands onto the TARDIS's head with a surprising amount of gentility, and even speaking softly and soothingly. Of course, it's all to taunt her, but~} There, there...That's how it is. People say that they love you, but people lie too. Sam wasn't the first person I loved, you know. There was one before him.

{She even starts to rub her fingers through her hair} You know the last thing he ever said to me?

{A pause before she whispers} "Puppet girl, your strings are mine."

[flinches at the touch and tries pulling away, though it's more a stagger and she sinks to her knees, doubling over in pain] Do not touch me, beast! I'm not...! I'm not like you...! The Doctor is not some base creature to lie and cheat in such a way! [whimpers a little, fingers digging into her scalp] I am not a puppet! I am alive! I am alive and he loves me and you will cease this prattle before I cease it for you!

{Diva kneels before the TARDIS, wrapping her arms around her, stroking her back} It's alright, it's alright~ I was just warning you. Ne, if you know already, it might not hurt as much as when it finally happens.

When that puppetmaster that you love decides to cut your strings, then there will only be one person to understand that pain, ne? Miss TARDIS, you and I are both alive, but you and I are both marionettes for people to play with.

Isn't that right?

Stop ... touching me ... vampire...! [grits her teeth but doesn't move, squeezing her eyes closed] I need no warning for something that will never happen...! The Doctor is not a puppetmaster! He is everything to me! I am his only constant, he has said so! He has given his life for me, as I have him! You cannot understand that! We are nothing alike! We aren't...! We aren't...!

Why are you mad? I do understand. I'm warm, right? You can hear my heart beating, is this is the feeling of an embrace. You say we're different, but we're both the same in the only place that it matters.

{Her hand comes up to cradle the TARDIS's head with all the tenderness of a mother trying to relax an upset child} Here. People lie. We put out trust in them, but people lie all the time, too worried to lose or be lost, you know. Amshel gave his life for me so many times, and I gave mine for his. But you know what? That's the game that we play. Is this all a lie, or are the words that people feed you truth?

[sneers] Vampires have no heart. And even if they did, it's only one, and not worth listening to beat!

[struggles a little, but she's so tired and everything hurts so much] He isn't like others. He isn't a liar, a villain! Not ... not to me...! He would never lie to me! I'm the only one he trusts, the only one who understands...! Just stop...!

Stop what? Telling you the truth?

It is not the truth!

{Diva laughs softly for a moment as her hands run over the TARDIS's back, and one hands comes to the knife wound from before, tracing her fingers over the edges of it thoughtfully}

Are you saying I'm a liar?