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[In pops Marta, mid-walk. It's a slow walk, and her gaze is on the ground. She's sad again, and it shows in the way she's holding herself, how she's fussing with the ends of her hair with both hands, in her heavy sigh.

'The most important thing you can do right now is run...' well, may as well run to the Plane and get some thinking done, right? And what is there to think about? Well, nothing pretty. Altamira under attack, Regal and Sheena in danger, the Vanguard's twisted plans... And somehow, it all comes back to one central idea for her... ]

Is this my fault, for being so naive? ... What should I do...?

[She finds a quiet spot in the forest, beneath one of the trees near the edge. She sits on the ground, knees drawn up to her chest, and quietly lets her thoughts spin on themselves. Maybe she'll just sleep here, while she has the chance...]


((OoC: Canon bump!! Marta and Emil are now in Chapter 7! /confetti! For those keeping score at home: Magnar was defeated and the Vanguard's plans have been revealed - the group is now traveling to Mizuho.))

Comments

[lamb_of_gold]

Who took it in such a direction. Surely you would never have condoned this?

[formervanguard.livejournal.com]

Of course not! I would never want something like this to happen! [She sits up again. She's still clearly upset, though...]

And... it's... daddy. Daddy's doing this.

[lamb_of_gold]

Your...

[Oh good lord. This just got really really bad.]

I'm sorry.

[formervanguard.livejournal.com]

[She nods. Not gonna cry, not gonna cry, not gonna... okay, a few tears are welling up in her eyes, but she's willing herself to stay strong.]

Yeah. I'm trying to think of what I should do, but it's hard...

[lamb_of_gold]

[There's a moment of hesitation before Mu puts his hand on her shoulder.]

I can't imagine it would be easy. I'm afraid there's nothing I can offer you by way of advice.

[formervanguard.livejournal.com]

[She looks up at him and nods. After taking a second to pull herself back together again, she rubs an arm over her eyes to dispel the tears.]

I know. It's okay. Someone told me that right now, the most important thing I can do is run. I need to stay alive, and okay. Right? But, after that...

[lamb_of_gold]

After that, you assess the paths in front of you and worry about it then. Focus on now, on staying alive.

[formervanguard.livejournal.com]

But for how long? I don't think we have much time!

[lamb_of_gold]

You have as much time as you need here. Plan your steps, then execute them, then return to plan again.

[formervanguard.livejournal.com]

[She nods.]

Yeah. You're right, Mu. Thank you.

I just feel so bad about all of this...

[lamb_of_gold]

You mustn't feel badly about things that aren't your fault.

[formervanguard.livejournal.com]

It's hard not to. I feel responsible, like I should have been able to stop it earlier. Maybe we wouldn't all be in so much trouble in the first place...

[lamb_of_gold]

What's happened has happened. Don't dwell on the what ifs. They're irrelevant and will only distract you.

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[She stays silent, just leans against him and closes her eyes. She'll try not to dwell, but it's difficult...]