twelfth pact ❖ {my apologies}

[pactum.livejournal.com]

[It's been a while, Plane. Emil appears cautiously, not accompanied by any beasts. Or girlfriends. It's just him. He glances this way and that, as if afraid of being attacked, and then he simply sighs and flumps down where he is, his back against the wall of the old movie theatre.]

Have I changed that much? Maybe I've changed too much...

[He pulls his knees to his chest and rests his forehead on them.]

How am I supposed to save the people in front of me if I can't even save myself?

I'm so pathetic...

[ooc: Itty bitty canon update! Emil has started on the Rosemary quest in order to free Regal. Hooray for ten minute canon bumps. Hope that's okay, Maggie. ♥]

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[charmandsmiles.livejournal.com]

[gently] Explain it to me. I've got plenty of time.

[pactum.livejournal.com]

I don't... completely understand it. What I remember from the Doctor-- er, the other one-- and Mu-- going through my head, it's... foggy. Dr. Crane explained a little bit to me but I don't know if he was telling the truth, either.

[charmandsmiles.livejournal.com]

[darkly] Wouldn't trust Dr. Crane's opinion if my life depended on it. But tell me what you know anyway, even if you don't completely understand it.

[pactum.livejournal.com]

Well... Ever since I became a Knight of Ratatosk, weird things have been happening. When I get really angry or we go into battle, Marta said it's like I become a different person. I can remember it, but not while I'm doing it... Does that make sense?

[Emil wracks his brain.]

When I lost it, that one time... the Doctor helped me sort through things. My memories are all mixed up. I'm starting to... forget things. Forget when I get into that angry version of me. Or... or maybe I never knew them in the first place.

I sort of remember, though. There was a pile of things I knew, things I'd done with you and Marta and Roxas. And there were some angry things, things I didn't understand, like my dreams-- those went in another part.

But there was a third... something. I'm not sure... maybe I'm making this up, but I felt like they weren't mine at all.

laaate

[charmandsmiles.livejournal.com]

[frowns] What happens when you become a Knight, exactly?

LAAAATER lmao

[pactum.livejournal.com]

Whenever I get really angry or I have to fight something, I feel this... power, and I fight like I have no fear at all.