twelfth pact ❖ {my apologies}

[pactum.livejournal.com]

[It's been a while, Plane. Emil appears cautiously, not accompanied by any beasts. Or girlfriends. It's just him. He glances this way and that, as if afraid of being attacked, and then he simply sighs and flumps down where he is, his back against the wall of the old movie theatre.]

Have I changed that much? Maybe I've changed too much...

[He pulls his knees to his chest and rests his forehead on them.]

How am I supposed to save the people in front of me if I can't even save myself?

I'm so pathetic...

[ooc: Itty bitty canon update! Emil has started on the Rosemary quest in order to free Regal. Hooray for ten minute canon bumps. Hope that's okay, Maggie. ♥]

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[oncemarauder.livejournal.com]

[firmly] You weren't in control of yourself. I could see that even before I heard about Crane.

[pactum.livejournal.com]

I-- But that part, it's-- it's been there since before I met him!

[oncemarauder.livejournal.com]

[after a moment] There's a part of me I can't control, either. Something feral and brutal. It's not quite the same, but…

[pactum.livejournal.com]

[Emil blinks at Remus.]

... huh?

[oncemarauder.livejournal.com]

[just gazes at him for a long moment; when he speaks, his words are soft and low]

When the full moon gets close, I get - fiercer, angrier. More reckless, more ruthless.

Not as bad as you were, not yet, but if someone took advantage...

[pactum.livejournal.com]

... Oh... that's...

[Emil looks at Remus for a long moment, not judging, just... thinking. Then he bows his head.]

... I don't deserve your forgiveness, but... thank you for trying to help.

[oncemarauder.livejournal.com]

[a slow, soft smile]

You're welcome.

[then, after a moment, he offers his hand] Why don't we start over?