twelfth pact ❖ {my apologies}

[pactum.livejournal.com]

[It's been a while, Plane. Emil appears cautiously, not accompanied by any beasts. Or girlfriends. It's just him. He glances this way and that, as if afraid of being attacked, and then he simply sighs and flumps down where he is, his back against the wall of the old movie theatre.]

Have I changed that much? Maybe I've changed too much...

[He pulls his knees to his chest and rests his forehead on them.]

How am I supposed to save the people in front of me if I can't even save myself?

I'm so pathetic...

[ooc: Itty bitty canon update! Emil has started on the Rosemary quest in order to free Regal. Hooray for ten minute canon bumps. Hope that's okay, Maggie. ♥]

Comments

[oikoumene.livejournal.com]

In my mortal life, I met many men, yet I would only call a handful of them pathetic. Come, what makes you berate yourself so?

[pactum.livejournal.com]

...

S-- sorry. It's just, a lot happened. I... I ended up hurting a lot of people, too.

I don't even deserve to come back.

[oikoumene.livejournal.com]

Yet you can't go through life without hurting people. Now, now, you need not punish yourself so!

[pactum.livejournal.com]

I -- I completely lost it. I killed someone who wasn't even involved!

[oikoumene.livejournal.com]

Such is the problem with fighting. It's too easy to get carried away! Ha, but that's part of the fun of it! {dohoho rider doesn't care at all can you tell}

[pactum.livejournal.com]

[Emil shudders.] Killing people isn't FUN! I never, EVER took a life or even thought about it b-before I—!

[Time to hide his face in his hands. He IS a pathetic man, Rider.]