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[madamemoiselle]

{Diva is lounging quite comfortably on a couch she's brought to the Plane, wearing very little. Propped against her knees is the The Poetical Works of Lord Byron that Sam has given her. She's also brought a few magazines, one of which seems to have a picture of her on the cover, but it's mostly obscured by a knife that she's been meaning to return.

But in the meantime, she reads aloud, occasionally stammering over a word or two.}

I had a dream, which was not all a dream.
The bright sun was extinguish'd, and the stars
Did wander darkling in the eternal space,
Rayless, and pathless, and the icy earth
Swung blind and blackening in the moonless air;
Morn came and went--and came, and brought no day,
And men forgot their passions in the dread
Of this their desolation; and all hearts
Were chill'd into a selfish prayer for light...

{But after that bit, she stops, smiling brightly}

Ne, that sounds like the Plane, doesn't it? Well, maybe not so much the last part, but I bet some people here would think that anyways. I can't, though. It's too nice here. Still, how lovely! Did Lord Byron get to come to this place, I wonder?

{She shakes her head though, laughing} Ne, it wouldn't really surprise me. There isn't too much about this place that surprises me anymore. But it'd be nice to actually meet him! I really do love his poems.

{But the thought is soon dismissed, and she reads the rest of the poem quietly.}

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[contract_star]

...Diva? What was it?

[madamemoiselle]

{It's the same reaction that she had when she told Sam, where her head bows, and she shifts anxiously, not looking again to meet his eyes}

I didn't want to hear her anymore. It can't have been that my whole life, everything, was pointless, useless, so I...I wanted to kill her, but I didn't. I wasn't supposed to kill, so I didn't, but I didn't want to hear her or see her ever again. I hate her, so I wanted her to stay away from me forever. I didn't kill her, but I hurt her.

{A pause} Like...Well, life Josef did, so long ago.

[contract_star]

Like Josef...?

[Oh.]

[Well, shit. Hei stares at Diva for a long time. He's not going to ask who, because he really, really doesn't want to know.]

[He's silent for a long time, and when he speaks again his voice is soft,] Diva, that's...that's not something you should ever do to anyone. Even someone you hate. You should understand that better than anyone.

[madamemoiselle]

{She tears up again}

Ne, I know that! I just...I don't know.

[contract_star]

[Hei is silent again for awhile. He really didn't think Diva would go that far with anyone.]

...You do seem sorry about it...

[madamemoiselle]

{You thought wrong :| Come on, she raped a little boy that one time}

...I really am. It was terrible, feeling like...like I'd done something really wrong! Even if I hate her, it's...it hurts.

[contract_star]

[HE DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT THAT.]

It is wrong, Diva. You need to understand that, alright? Some things are just fundamentally wrong. Killing is something that can be justified sometimes, but rape isn't one of those things. I really thought you were above those sorts of things... [Yes, he's disappointed.]

But...if you really regret it, then... [He shakes his head.] Can you promise me you will never, ever do something like that again? To anyone?

[madamemoiselle]

{but Heiiii D: she's never going to lay Sam otherwise!!}

I'm sorry.

{Her head bows again, shamefully} I won't. Never.

[contract_star]

[>:|]

Alright.

[madamemoiselle]

Hei...Please, don't hate me.

[contract_star]

I don't hate you, Diva. Nothing you could do could make me hate you. But I'm disappointed. And I'm angry.

[madamemoiselle]

...I know. I'm sorry, Hei.

[contract_star]

[He sighs heavily and runs his fingers through his hair.]

[madamemoiselle]

This is my punishment, isn't it?

[contract_star]

...Punishment?

[madamemoiselle]

For doing something so terrible. No one is here to punish me anymore, so this is that, right?

[contract_star]

What is? The fact that I'm upset with you for hurting someone like that?

[madamemoiselle]

No...It's...

{Sighs a little}

I don't want to lose my friends. But it's my fault.

[contract_star]

You're not losing your friends, Diva. This isn't completely about you.

[madamemoiselle]

{Diva says nothing}

[contract_star]

[Hei stays silent as well. He doesn't like this at all.]