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[a large, blue police box appears on the Plane, surrounded by piles of broken and burned debris, the remnants of what appears to have been part of a city square. snow is piled against the sides of the box -- soft and impossibly white, created through atmospheric excitation. copious amounts of rain water drip down the sides of the box, which looks to have been in the center of a rather terrifying and unnatural type of weather disaster.

the box itself exudes anger and pain and sorrow, a low, jarring hum vibrating the air around it. it just LOOKS gloomy.

it might be a good idea for any and all Doctors (except Eight, Eight's okay) to keep a wide berth, because this particular police box is having a rather bad time of it. approach with care]

[ooc; Again, tags back will be slow, as I am at work, but I really wanted to post this, so]

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[snaps]

You do not help! You ruin everything, just as the Master does! You take away my Doctor and you ruin everything!

[He seems to bristle at that, but doesn't raise his voice any higher] Don't compare me to him. I am nothing like the Master, and I don't take the Doctor away from you.

Do not be stupid. All of his companions take him from me. You do so and harm me in the process. You do so and take away my well-being.

[quietly]

You do so and it is unfair. He does not suffer the effects of your presence as I do. He is not forced to lose you as I am.

[For a while, he doesn't respond. When he finally does, his voice is no louder than hers] I know what I do to you. I know what I do to the Doctor and the Master. I don't enjoy it. I loathe my immortality, and I waited more than a hundred years for the Doctor so he could fix me.

You wont lose me, not yet. It's when you meet me as a human that you'll loose me, because I was only worth keeping around back then.

But I know that I have you. I know that you are my future and I know you are snatched away. There are so few of his companions I care for. Why must I lose you? And why can he still keep you when I cannot? It is unfair.

I died the first time protecting the Doctor, buying him time; I don't regret it. And I don't know why or how he stands it, just that I was abandoned once and I don't want to loose him again.

[nods slowly, looking away]

It ... hurts. It hurts in ways I do not understand. The physical illness is one thing, but there is a ... longing, a sense of loss, that I have never experienced before. I do not understand it.

[sighs, looking down at the console]

I do. It's what I've felt since the Doctor left me behind, since I found it he couldn't fix me, and since I ran into you two here....Ive missed being in here. I've missed you and I still do. Because it was a nice feeling not being hated by what you thought of as a home.

...forgive me, but I cannot ... it is too hard. It hurts so much. It hurts and I do not know you. I am not her. I do not know how to put aside this pain for a love I have not yet felt. Forgive me.

[There's no reply, only a nod as Jack takes a set back. There is a long moment of hesitation and then he turns, making his way towards the doorway]

[watches him go, remaining silent until he's almost gone]

...I am sorry, Jack. Perhaps I can learn to love you, still, but for now ... leave me be. Please.

[He pauses for a second, tensing for a moment but not allowing himself to turn around] I understand. I won't go near you again, so don't worry.

[And then he's gone, stepping off before dropping from the Plane]

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