realityshifted

Entry tags:

kamen rider den-o (da) nogami ryotarou

.Ø24

[Ryotarou appears on the Plane, hand poised behind his back. His expression is nervous, but hopeful. He takes a breath... and pulls out the Zeronos belt. He grins widely at this final sign that things are back to normal.]

It looks like it's all over. Completely, now.

(ooc: So... yes. Crow's getting swamped in schoolwork and everything, so we decided to end the experiment early. Everything is back to the way it should be, with slight mergers between the two involved and, of course, the absorbed mannerisms. Hope you guys had fun. ♥)

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[... Ryotarou goes silent, his expression pained for an instant before turning as blank as he can manage and nodding.] He did.

[Sees what Ryotarou is doing and marvels, for a moment, over how similar they are.]

I could forget you at any time. Isn't that right?

... I'm sorry.

[Hei isn't quite sure why he's angry. It's not like anything has happened yet. It's not like Ryotarou could have helped this situation. It's not like Hei hasn't lost people before.]

[He looks away. Quietly,] You should have told me.

[When Hei breaks eye contact, Ryotarou takes a breath, fighting to keep his expression neutral.]

... Why?

Because having my memories tampered with...that's something they do in my world. That's how people turn into Dolls. That's what the Syndicate does to people they think know too much, when killing them is too much of an effort.

[And Hei doesn't want to forget Ryotarou, or anyone he even mildly cares about. Because forgetting, being forgotten--that's a fate worse than death. It's like being dead and alive at the same time. It's like how Hei felt after he came back. But he can't bring himself to say any of that.]

[Ryotarou goes silent again, his eyes reflecting the sadness and loneliness facing his fate always brings to the surface, and his words come out in a murmur.] I'm sorry.

[Long, long silence. It's weird how Hei knows exactly how Ryotarou is feeling. Not what he's going through, no--but facing a life without Bai, and then later facing a world where he had destroyed all of Japan...]

Is there a chance that if I did forget, I could remember somehow?

... the memories.. will be gone.

[...It's not fair. And what a stupid thing to think. Of course it's not fair. Nothing is ever fair; Hei learned that a long time ago. But Hei can't help it.]

[...But maybe there is a way to help it.]

Alright, then.

Hei-san, I'm... [He's already said it. More than once, even, but there's nothing else he can think to say. He won't promise not to use them, and he can't say it isn't unlikely — he's already used two here, and the threat is always hanging in the air. So he just trails off.]

[Looks back at Ryotarou, almost seeming to study him for a moment.]

Alright then. When--if--it does happen...I'll be ready. Okay? I won't just let it happen.

Ready? What... [Ryotarou frowns, then shakes his head.] H-Hei-san, no.

What? [Sudden surge of anger.] What, then? When everyone's forgotten you, what are you going to do? Just go off on your own and die somewhere? You have no idea how stubborn the people are here. No one is just going to stand for that, and neither will I. I might not be able to remember you, but I can at least remind myself.

[His expression closes down again.] That's why no one else knows about the cards. Hei-san, please don't. Even if you do that, it won't bring the memories back, and... it will just make things harder.

[Snaps,] Harder for who exactly? For you? Please. What about the rest of us?

Self-sacrifice is just selfishness wrapped in fancy paper. Trust me, I know.

I know... I know that it's selfish, and it doesn't hurt just me. I try to keep from involving people as much as I can. But even so... it has to be done.

Then this has to be done, too.

Why?

Because. [Grits his teeth.] Because I'm-- [This honesty thing is so hard.]

Because I'm sick of losing people.

[Ryotarou is silent for a while.] What are you going to do?

I'll take notes. [Bitter little smirk.] What a "student" is supposed to be, right?

A student...?

That's what I was posing as all this time. A college student.

If I write everything down, even if I forget it, at least it'll be somewhere.

[He still looks like he opposes this, like he wants to tell Hei to drop it and ~~oh, irony~~ forget about it. But he keeps his mouth shut, only nodding silently.]

(no subject)

contract_star - 2008-09-18 16:10 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

saythistostart.livejournal.com - 2008-09-18 17:08 (UTC) - Expand

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only