036 / 002 - I have lightning (if the stars dry out) to guide me

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Misaki is standing on the edge of the theater roof, on top of the little cement cement barrier there to keep people from falling off. She sticks one foot into the air in front of her, puts her arms out for balance, and then pivots sharply and starts walking along the ledge. She stops at the corner of the theater and it looks for a moment like she's going to jump, but she just plops neatly down on the ledge and dangles her feet in the air.]

...it's so pretty up here.

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[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[ >I ] No it's not.

[ghostlighter]

Why not?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

Because people keep treating me like a 'past version'! Like I'm out of date or wrong or something.

[ghostlighter]

Then just tell 'em off.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

I've tried.

[ghostlighter]

And?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

And then they treat me like an experiment.

[ghostlighter]

An experiment. Really.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Hopping off the bar again, feeling stupidly upset] Forget it!

[ghostlighter]

Ever think about taking your own advice?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[...you really need to learn to phrase things better, Chris, because now you've made her cry.] Why did I even tell you?

[ghostlighter]

[Crying? What?! fklhsdlnk] H-hey. Wait... I'm just— Why should it matter if people are comparing you to your future? Just screw them and find people who won't judge you because of your future!

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Ffff stupid leaky eyes. She scrubs at them with one sleeve.] This place is bad enough without everyone... I just can't... It's too much. I wish Kanami was here.

[ghostlighter]

They don't have to be. You can just go home if you want to see them. But, if you're here? You're going to run into people that aren't from home.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

I know that. I mean everyone who recognizes me. Who treats me like being fourteen is some kind of joke until they find out I don't know who they are. [Hugging herself. Er. Crossing her arms. Yes.]

[ghostlighter]

Well... then you have two options: you can either keep being like this, or... you can realize these people really don't get it, and prove to them you're not the person they think you are. Your call.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[...and now looking at him questioningly.] How?

[ghostlighter]

[He shrugs a little.] Easiest way is to just be yourself. You can't possibly be exactly the person they're expecting. They might be disappointed, but that's where you don't need to care. Why should you?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Because she cares too much] I guess that's true.

[ghostlighter]

They'll get it eventually.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Probably right about when she stops being a kid. :| ] So where are you from? What kind of world?

[ghostlighter]

[Oh, the irony.] ... Earth? How am I supposed to answer that?

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

[Her turn to eyeroll.] Well I don't know. Are there a lot of people like you?

[ghostlighter]

I'm gonna have to say 'no' to that one.

[chasingstars201.livejournal.com]

Okay, how about this one: can you not be sarcastic when you answer a question?