fighters don't live in peace

[leschath.livejournal.com]

[Milo appears, sitting on the Astral Plane. He is dressed in normal clothing, as in civilian clothing. It's a rather different look than what he usually bothers with, fitted pants with a long strap that's fastened to each pant leg at the knee and a tight t-shirt in a dark blue. His hair's tied loosely at the base of his neck and he looks...disturbed. Country life does not agree with him.]

Well, Athens is still around at least. [He rubs at his temples like he has a bad headache.]

How do normal people do this?

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[contract_star]

Normal life, you mean?

[lamb_of_gold]

Readjusting?

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Yes. Waking up to birds singing.

Packaged meat. Talking, or failing to talk. It's quite revolting.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Failing to readjust would be more accurate.

[contract_star]

[Smirks.] It's easier when you have to pretend at it all the time. [Looks skyward.] You do get used to it, but it takes awhile.

[auroredor.livejournal.com]

Without thought.

[lamb_of_gold]

I'm sure you're faring better than I would in your situation.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

It was never my job to pretend.

[shakes his head.] I don't think I will.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

No, I think you would handle the "peace and quiet" better.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

[Bitterly,] So you speak.

[Soundless sigh and he looks down.] How do you do it?

[lamb_of_gold]

Well, you're not living with the anticipation of either assassins or a holy war. I think, perhaps, it is that element I would have trouble adapting to.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

I am living without purpose and without reason or desire. That is the larger problem for me.

[contract_star]

No, I suppose not.

It takes time. And it's a slow process. Very slow. And some part of you will always be restless. But, you'll be alright--eventually.

[lamb_of_gold]

Find purpose then.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Don't comfort me, it's disturbing.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Like what? Raising a family? Pursuing some insignificant ambition? Finding true love? Healing the fucking planet?

That seems to be along the lines of what normal people want.

[lamb_of_gold]

And it is they you're trying to emulate yes?

[leschath.livejournal.com]

No, it'd be futile to try. Saints are by definition, not normal. But I am no longer a saint. Nor will I ever be normal.

[auroredor.livejournal.com]

... [So not dignifying that with a reply.]

I choose not to make mountains from grains of sand.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

And what do you choose to do?

[lamb_of_gold]

Yet you're trying to appear as such.

[contract_star]

Alright, then. Would you rather yell at me?

[leschath.livejournal.com]

...yes.

[lamb_of_gold]

Then it may be in your best interest to find a 'normal' purpose, even if it's just for appearances. [A small smile] You may find something you enjoy.

[leschath.livejournal.com]

Are you asking me what I'd rather do with you?